Just some recent events... it's been a pretty busy week for me. Firstly, on Friday I had an interview for Steak-n-Shake. I got hired! And today is my orientation. *crosses fingers* Let's hope it goes well! I so need this job o__o

But on Saturday, I lost my cat Zephyr. She was an old cat, probably around 15 years old (older than my youngest brother). She came into our house after her original owner died. My mother's friend asked us if we would take her in, and despite her being a grumpy antisocial cat we loved her anyway. Kathy, my mom's friend, remarked that after two months with us she acted completely different, and even looked more friendly. But she had gotten fleas from sneaking outside, and since dad wouldn't pay for anything like actual medicine she just got worse and worse. I think she got anemia from having fleas and just got too weak to eat or drink, and started getting thinner and thinner. When I was home this weekend she was so sick that she couldn't even walk. My mom, my sister and I sat around Zephyr, crying, as mom called a vet. We were going to put her down so she wouldn't have to suffer anymore. It was traumatic to say the least to see this once-gorgeous cat near death, and I can't help but feel guilty because we didn't do anything for her until it was too late. I suppose euthanasia is a better way to go than death by starvation, but I wish we could have nursed her back to health instead. I will sorely miss that bitchy ol' kitty.

However... our outside cat (a stray we started feeding, basically) had babies a while back and they're almost 8 weeks now. They're so adorable! Watching pint-sized kitties fighting is pretty much the coolest thing ever. And while we'll all miss Zephyr, the kitties bring new life to our house. I hope we keep them all because I'd hate to give any of them away, I love them so much :D

And then, after an already traumatic weekend, my roommate calls me and tells me our dorm room flooded. What?? exactly. It's a good thing she stayed over the weekend because she managed to save most of our electronics from impending doom. Apparently the room across from ours flooded from water through the window (we're in the basement) and it started creeping down the hallway. So... we moved! It sucked having to move into a dorm room AGAIN, but this room has better furniture. So I guess it was worth it. Plus, the college will reimburse us for whatever got ruined in the flood, so there's a small comfort. The only bad thing about this new room is it's missing a heater D: of course we don't need it now but it'd be nice to have something for when winter comes, especially if we have another Ice Storm of Death like last year.

So there it is. My NotSoGoodWeek in review. But with the promise of employment, things are lookin' up. I do so love being able to buy things :DDD

((*snicker* that ＊ミ makes me think of starmie, which makes me realize i've been playing pokemon way, way too much.))

So, hi! It's been a while! I had a pretty good birthday, waited til the day after so me and my brother and law could share a party (mine's the 8th, his the 10th). Had lots of good food, haha :D and an ice cream cake that still needs finished. It's hard to eat one of those by yourself so I've been enlisting the help of my brother. I think we're winning, but the war hasn't been won yet XD

And of course, being the darling well-behaved youngest daughter I conned a little bit of cash from dad. Too bad it'll all be spent on dorm supplies >_< after last year I didn't think I'd need anything new, but things break D: I can and can't wait for move-in day. I know the day will be completely busy but really fun (especially the hypnotist they have as part of Georgetown College's traditions XD), but I'll feel bad for leaving Mom in the house with a bunch of crappy boys. Speaking of which...

Jim leaves on the 23rd to go to his sister (my aunt)'s place in Florida.*sigh of relief* Intense amounts of drama aside, having him here has made me realize a couple of things: I've apparently blocked out any parts of my childhood having to deal with "the geezer", aka my dad's dad; and that pretty much my entire extended family are a bunch of crappy people that I'd rather not have any connection to D: When I get old (haha, me old? nevarrr!) I really hope I'm not some bitter old fart. blech :(

I've hardly been on the internet at all during the past month or so, which is really weird compared to last summer. I've been playing games using emulators on my laptop, and since we don't have wireless, I can't get internet on the lappy without lugging it to the router thing, plugging it in, etc. But once I'm settled in the dorm and have 24/7 access (bwahaha) I'll be downloading like a mad(wo)man.

Ugh, the only thing I feel about turning 19 is that I'll be 20 next year. Hello, pre-mid-life crisis! XD Getting older is dumb :( I don't want to act like an adult, adults are poopy ^__^

HAY GUYS GUESS WHAT

 

yaysongis go!!

 

the fic journal has everything moved to it now! it's unlocked so go check it out :D
any new fic stuff will be put there, ok? well, except for the really retarded joke stuff. lulz.
now go leave comments so i feel all validated and stuff! 8D;;
 

:D i'm knitting a scarf!

but i'm really novice, had to re-read the section on purling, messed something up and ended up with 21 stitches instead of the original 20 XD

lulz i was thinking i could give it to someone as a christmas gift, b/c that's probably how long it will take. sooo novice ^__^

lol, i just feel like sharing random useless information :D

*cereal is the best meal ever. plus, you don't even have to have a drink to go with it... just drink the milk! (unless you're my nazi-of-a-roommate who doesn't eat cereal with milk... wtf? XD)

*of all the cereals, the best kind are chocolate cereals, especially coco puffs. -nod- and the second best kind are the plain-ish kind, like rice krispies and (frosted) corn flakes and chex.

*whoever thought that college should be optional, and thus very costly, was an idiot D: seriously, just make it mandatory and have the gov't pay for it already! (use sarah palin's wardrobe as funding, that might help) then maybe we'd have less dimwits running around :|||

*ever since freshman year of high school, i've been wary of orange color glazed dinnerware b/c our science teacher told us that the dye involved causes more radiation than normal. that geiger counter was srs bzns!

*despite being a self-proclaimed grammar nazi, i actually don't really know what a comma splice is (this may be evident), and i just guess when it comes to who/whom. i really just tend to copy what i think is a good example. for instance, i use (parentheses) instead of setting a separate thought off with commas, like so, because my ap english teacher said it was a hallmark of better writing.

*speaking of writing, i'm better at writing analytical essays than i am with fiction. i'm so uncreative when it comes to fiction (despite trying), but in "real" papers it's just formal, supported ranting. :D

*this is a "cool story, jeopardy teen" story but the other day when i was in burger king with my mom and sister, i'm pretty sure i saw my sociology professor. which is really weird b/c the city my college is in is 50 minutes away from my hometown. but i kinda freaked out and sat facing away from him on the other side of the restaurant because i didn't want to give him an opportunity to say anything if it was my professor. *shame* 8D;

*whenever i can't remember how to spell a word, i type it into google and hope it suggests what i'm looking for. XD

*this is the last one for now: http://omegle.com for serious lulz. it's a bunch of people and you get put in a convo with some stranger. it's really fun to pretend like you're foreign and trying to sell them something 8D

ugh. been up since 5am yesterday, basically. had a couple of short naps, and right now i feel like i could stay up longer, but i am SO. HUNGRY. but i'm also SO. LAZY. and won't go fix myself any food 8D;

anyway, earlier (like, twelve hours earlier) i had an incredibly brief interview for mc donald's. not exactly a glamorous job, but jeez oh pete i need money D: gotta start trying to make car payments, at the very least. but it didn't seem all that promising, the guy was like well we'll call you later if we figure something out blah blah. it's for the new one they're building, so i figure they're really in need of people right? i think i'd rather get cashier duty. that's pretty much what i did at the movie theater. lol during the interview i couldn't look him in the eyes for very long, i kept looking away. idky, i just can't look people in the eyes, especially when i barely know them. it freaks me out. and it's worse if they have blue eyes. again, i don't know why 8D;;; but at the very least i looked respectable, another guy was interviewing some hopeful i guess and he just looked shady. no offense :D and hey. i can punch buttons, i have a stellar ACT score, and i'm not completely incompetent, so really mcdonald's, just give me the job already D: i can't stand waiting ;_;

and having jim here is really tiring on all of us. mom is basically the only one who will do all the dirty work, which makes me mad because there are males in the house who would probably feel a little less awkward changing an old man than i would. i'll help with everything else, but i refuse to do that. dad's taking off work for six days because my uncle ron and his family are coming to visit for the weekend, and i'm really curious how that's going to work out. more than likely mom will be stuck with the grunt work of tending to jim. dad's the one related to him; i really think dad should help out more. geh i'm just super frustrated, and after only three days, i hate to know what the rest of summer is going to be like. what if he doesn't improve before i have to go back to georgetown? asklgskljsklf asdfkljklsdfkladf klfjasdfkljfkldsfd D:

But not quite. It feels weird, surreal, to look at the feeble and aging man lying in what was my brother's bedroom, and to then take a gander at his website showcasing his art. He's terribly sick, and unable to even go to the bathroom without a tremendous amount of help, but only months ago he was updating his blog. I was never close to him, our family is one of the distant kind, but I always thought it was neat to have an artist in the family. Now, I wonder if he will ever be able to return to his sculptures and carvings. It's probably morbid to think that, but I can't help it.

My dad and brother went to his house in the mountains to get his diabetic supplies, and brought back some of his carvings. Hopefully they will strike a chord in him, give him the fight, the will to improve. Because just looking at him now, you can tell he's depressed. This once self-proclaimed hermit, proudly living in his forest of friends, has been reduced to rattling a ramune bottle when he needs help turning himself on the bed.

I guess the thing that hits me the hardest is the realization of age, how crippling it can be.
I don't ever want to get old, to die.
Does anyone?

I just needed to get this out, today has been a long day. He is going to live at our house, now that he's been discharged from the rehabilitation facility. My mom and sister don't think he's rehabilitated enough to be out of professional care, and I can't say that I disagree. None of us really know how to care for someone who needs so much help. Then again, we're the only ones who said we'd take him, so I guess we have to learn. We pray for the best.


on a less depressing note, i'm starting to move my fanfics to the other journal. i'll make a shiny announcement post when it's all done. the plan is to write more often, we'll see how that goes... ugh i still have a buttload to do for those challenges. DX

I finally changed the layout! So now all that's left is a header, some tweaking to the tiny icons bit, and I still need to move my (very few) fanfics.

I miss my dark blue/ grey color scheme, but I figure something bright would be nice. Maybe it'll make me a more positive person... lol. j/k. But the weird brown had to go... I'm epic fail at editing colors :D

JSYK, the layout is this awesome layout by snubbly . despite trying, i have yet to find anything that is as clean, functional, and organized as this one *gushes*

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yeah that's pretty self-explanatory :D seriously though, i'm bored out of my mind. i wanna go home this weekend but i have work D<<< super mad about that.

so... like the subject says :D i bought a tarot deck the other day while i was in waldenbooks. they actually had a rider-waite (which is the stereotypical, classic, tarot) in the store but it was like twenty bucks... i didn't want to spend that much at the time. butttt in the little mini-books section (which had random crap like zen for dummies, etc) there was a little Tarot: The Complete Kit box. so i got it ^___^

i've been trying to learn all the cards and stuff but there's 78 of them, so it's slow goings for now. i need to find someone who can read, that way i can see how it's actually done. i'm basically just going on a whim now XD blame it on GodChild (best. manga. ever.) because there are tarot references -everywhere-.

it'd be cool to have a deck with a Happy Squirrel card in it, though. lulz

also, WOWIE (i love dr. zimbardo. and hulna. lullllz)

i'm listening to american music now!

it's pretty refreshing to be able to understand it. lol.

the weather is clearing up and it feels fantastic.
it puts me in a better... and more productive... mood.

although i still hate doing homework >_>
i wish i could just not have to go to college, jeez.

yeah i haven't done a damn thing to fix my layout yet! :'D woo~ go me!

AND FUCK YEAH IT'S ALMOST FIVE IN THE MORNING. I FEEL LIKE STAYING UP TIL 8:00 AM LIKE THE GOOD OL DAYS... AKA LAST SUMMER :'(

i have some news! :D as you may/may not be able to tell, i'm changing my layout. [[since naochin is the best santa EVER she got me mirotic. homg. so i scanned like 2 pages so i could make a layout for it, lulz XD]]

but right now the layout is lookin' kinda ugly. and hard to read in some parts. be patient. :'D i'll fix it when i figure out what code goes to which. right now i just feel like my eyes are crossing. and i'm afraid i'm going to end up dreaming in hexadecimal code D:

happy new year and all that stuff ^^ let's celebrate with a pretty layout! ...after i get some sleep. my legs are le TIRED. [[in the event that i get typically lazy, this ugly layout may be here to stay until i feel like fixing it 8D;]]

omg i was kinda tempted to capslock this whole entry. god i love capslock comms ;_;

anyway, there was a link posted to this~
and it's mother effing genius.

i shall post my favorite ones 8D they use the same prompted-words in each story, but i think it makes it more lulzy. idk, maybe it's just too late at night or something. but i'm loling all over the place and trying not to wake my roommate :'D
( omg, such scary! )

( ooh this one is for mature audiences only! )

( such sweet couple... )

( don't read if you're not comfortable with wincest!!1! )

( awww how sweet! )

( this is probably my favorite setup )

( and finally, the very first one XD )

LONG POST IS LONG D: but for real, i am dying. soooooooooo much lulz to be had <3___<3